Honestly,
I really didnt think Id be given another chance but I know Im runnin on my last one . I do not wanna mess up ever again. God I really dont. I appreciate Willie more than ever right now , I just want him to see that I can be that real woman he’s been searching for . And not the little girl I used to be. I love him so so so much and I know for a fact now that he loves me too without a doubt. Any other nigga woulda cut me off , but Im so thankful that he didnt. I know that with both of our faith combined we will achieve true success and happiness. I just wanna fast forward to where we both have our shit together so that we dont have to worry about the bullshit problems we have now but the struggle does make us stronger.
If you cant believe
lets make believe
the way you got me
i dont wanna leave
but i cannot force myself to stay
i think its best we go our separate ways
cuz time dont wanna be on our side
ive spent hours counting minutes of pride
i dont wanna lay up and cryyy
already had enough sleepless nights
i dont wanna lie
i dont wanna cry
no more bonnie
no more clyde
i just wanna move on with my life
i just wanna move on move on \
boy
i know i gave the wrong impression
i dont wanna put up stressin
i just rather be alone , be alone
Last Night
Reality hit.
Its crazy how much Ive really changed in the time Ive been with Willie.
I can’t believe how much my past had affected me. And I have really turned more wise and mature with him.
He says Im a player tho. And wont admit it. But I just really feel like I hung my jersey up a long time ago . But the reality is . its been a year and a half. It feels like 3-4 years to me tho . I dont want to fuck with another nigga knowing im not gonna feel pleasure , This man is more than enough for me. I cant imagine being as real as Ive been with another man . I cant imagine another man accepting me and risking his heart for me. I used to be just like a nigga so I understand why Willie has been so cautious. I do stupid ass shit that makes him wonder sometimes and I dont wanna pull another stupid mistake because I wouldnt wanna be in that position again. I’ve came a long way and I learned so much from my past. This is the realest relationship I could possibly have. Its like our love is truely being tested everyday but we keep winning.
I love Willie.
Im gonna prove him so wrong. Deadass. Ima get on my Super Woman behavior and show him Im that bitch he needs to wife. He makes me wanna be that much more amazing.
Life be Fukin with me tho , how everything went from feeling like heaven to this stupid ass fight :(( ugh and the fact that its seriously my fault again makes me so angry at myself , I hate fighting with him and I’m trying to fix things but how the fuck do I fix it . Every word I speak turns it even worse . Smfh what the fuck. I feel like I jinxed myself with writing my last private post :(
Dear Willie
Am I dreaming? Or is this really reality ? Are you really loving me now? :] I can’t believe you’re mine. And I am yours. The way I feel for you is crazier than my words can say but just know that I want to be the woman of your dreams, your partner, your other half , your best friend, and everything a real man deserves. I know we are gonna have plenty more of our stupid arguments and disagreements but I will always let my pride fall when I know I am wrong and will run back into your arms because no fight is greater than my love for you. I’ve never felt love like this before , and it only feels right to call you the love my lifeeeee <333 I know I sound corny as hell lol but I really mean it when I say I fall more in love with you every passing day . I didn’t even think it was possible but you surprise me all the time. I just want this to last, I want to grow by your side , I want to laugh with you til we’re old and wrinkly but still cute. The whole 9 . Because from here, there’s no going back. If you are to ever leave me, I will be scarred forever. There’s no topping our love . There’s no nigga comin close to how I feel with you . He can have all the money in the world , the hottest body and face, but their entire character will never equal to you. And that’s why I love you. That’s how I know I was meant to be in your arms. We don’t have to go anywhere or do anything at all , because just being in your presence brings my soul to life and I know that where I am is where I have waited to be . In the arms of my King. My baby. My true love . My Willie <3
Blows my mind
It blows my mind that you love me.
Inside. Outside. All of me.
Me.
The fact that Willie offered to take me to visit my brothers grave on his anniversary tomorrow is the sweetest thing he could do for me . I love him so much more for that because it means so much to me
I’m so excited for this summer . Me and my baby gonna have so much funnn and I can’t wait . He says he’s gonna take me camping and all i could do til then is smile like an idiot daydreaming about how special it’s gna be 😁😁😁😁😁😁 and we can go to waterparks and rollercoaster and pools and ahhhh it’s gna be paradiseeee !!! I need to behave myself so that I never lose this amazing man . He took such good care of me last night even after I messed up and he was angry with me but he put his pride aside and forgave me and then helped me stay up in my worst of pains . I love him yo . It’s weird that he asked em today if he’s the love of my life or I just love him …. And I have to say he is the love of my life because I have never had such a strong relationship and connection to anybody else and I’ve only had one other person that I considered my first love but after Willie , he’s starting to look like just an obsession I had . What i have now is much much more than my words can explain . It’s real . It’s full of struggle yet so much more full of love and happiness , he s made me grow and I’m gonna keep on growing by his side . Lol , it’s crazy . There’s no turning back from here . He’s my perfectly imperfect beautiful fairy tale . You have my heart and soul Willie
It’s gettin real
It’s funny how I stay posting up about how much I love this guy and how I see us growing and living together and all of these dreams , now it’s like becoming more and more real and I can’t believe it . Like this is it . This is my man . This is my love and we have begun this new journey together . It feels so surreal . My long years of single and reckless life has ended right before my eyes and in a year and a half I have changed in more ways then I can count on my hands . I have this wonderful man that I can’t get enough of and it’s only going to get better and more unreal from here . Wow . Thank you universe.
He says he owns me and what’s crazy is that he really does